Yesterday was the day which marked the one year mark of me leaving my former employer. Maybe that is why I was so down (and still am). I also received my grade for the fourth part of the CPA exam which I had taken late last month. I did not pass.
I texted Sarah telling her I am an idiot and that I wanted to cry. The whole job search and exam situation is wearing me down. BIG time.
I am trying to be positive. I want to provide income for our family (and my retirement). I have over two decades of experience in my field and I feel like employers many times put me on par with someone with 3 - 7 years of experience. And they expect me to take a 25 - 30% pay cut.
Believe me, I am grateful for what we have as a family - not only financially, but in terms of love for each other. Sarah works her *ss off each and every day, whether at the office or at home. She is good at her profession and gets compensated accordingly (thankfully).
Am I a loser? A loafer? No, I am not either of those, but sometimes it just feels like I am.